MUSHY CEO: The leadership lesson that cracked me wide open

The leadership lesson that cracked me wide open

I found my purpose in my early twenties: to bring the joy of wellness to others.

That purpose led me to big stages, big teams, and big leadership roles. From the outside, it looked like I had it all figured out. But on the inside? I was drowning in anxiety, self-doubt, and fear. I was still trying to prove I was enough… even while leading others.

Then one day, my entire team quit.

They didn’t want to work with me anymore. That moment hurt deeply, but it also cracked something open. I realized that to become the leader I was meant to be, I needed to start doing the work on me.

And that’s when everything changed.

I started going inward. I attended retreats. I began regulating my nervous system. And I started microdosing—which softened me in the most profound way. It brought me peace, presence, and clarity I didn’t know I was missing. It helped me lead not from force or fear, but from trust, empathy, and truth.

If you’re on a similar path—stepping into leadership, vision, or simply trying to lead yourself better—I want to share two of the blends that supported me most:

Zen – designed for deep peace and presence. Perfect for calming the mental chatter and connecting with your inner knowing.
Golden Rule – a beautiful option for heart-opening awareness, insight, and inner clarity.

These aren’t just products—they’re partners in your evolution

I’m still that visionary, driven leader.
But now I lead with my heart.
With softness and strength.
With peace, not pressure.

And if you’re a leader—or a human—carrying more than you’re meant to, I want you to know: there’s another way.

You can be powerful and grounded.
Focused and free.
Driven and deeply at peace.

That’s the kind of leadership the world needs.
And it starts within.

XOOX– Your Mushy CEO