MUSHY CEO: A Gentle Peace I Didn’t Know I Needed

My Journey with San Pedro Microdosing

The first time I experienced San Pedro was during an ayahuasca retreat. On the final day, we sat with San Pedro in ceremony—often referred to as the “grandfather” after spending days with the “grandmother.” While ayahuasca offered me powerful personal clearing, deep inner work, and intense surrender, San Pedro felt different. It was clearing too—but in a lighter, more connective way.
I remember the trees looking brighter. Fruit tasting like the nectar of the gods. It felt like joy.

That was my first experience with San Pedro.

But what I want to share with you today is the quieter, more subtle path I’ve taken with San Pedro microdosing—and how it’s supported me and continued my transformation in powerful ways.

Let me say this clearly: mushrooms, LSD, and ayahuasca have changed my life.
They’ve brought me through layers of healing, awakening, and remembrance I never thought possible. I’m not the same woman I was years ago, and I’m deeply grateful for the support of those tools along my journey. They’ve helped me return to myself in ways that words can’t fully express.

But even after all that work—even with all the integration, breakthroughs, and shifts—there was still a subtle thread of anxiety in my body. Something I had grown used to. A kind of low hum under the surface. A soft buzz that almost becomes background noise—until it’s gone.

For me, working through anxiety—at least that’s what I’ve come to call this feeling—has felt like peeling an onion.
Layer by layer, each season of healing revealed something new—something ready. And all the work I’d done up until now had helped me peel back so many of those layers: deeper awareness, more presence, more peace.

But this was another layer.
One I didn’t even know was still there.
And that’s where San Pedro met me.

I want to be clear: the work you’ve already done is working.
This path isn’t about being “not healed enough” or “never done.”
It’s about honoring the unfolding—the return to our truest state.

And San Pedro, for me, gently brought forward the next layer of peace I didn’t even realize I needed.

When I began microdosing, I started gently—just one capsule of 500mg, once daily. The effects weren’t immediate or dramatic. In fact, I wasn’t sure I liked it at first. It was subtle. Emotions surfaced. Energy shifted. But I stayed with it.

And then—little by little—I began to feel something deeper.
A steady, grounded release.
My nervous system began to truly settle in a way it hadn’t before. Not in a crash. Not in a purge. But in a consistent, gentle exhale over time.

It also brought me into a new depth of grounding—not just mentally, but emotionally and physically.
Over the years, I’ve become more grounded, less reactive, and more present with myself and others—and so much of that has come from the inner work and the tools I’ve used. But San Pedro helped take that grounding to the next level.

Things that used to bother me… simply don’t.
I’m slower to react, quicker to pause, and more willing to let things be.
There’s a stillness in me now that feels honest. Rooted.
I’m no longer just practicing calm—I am calm.

What I’ve come to understand is that San Pedro can be incredibly supportive for those who may have found other psychedelics like mushrooms or LSD to be too activating—or very helpful for people who are more sensitive.
There’s a steadiness to it. A gentleness. A wise, grounded energy that doesn’t overwhelm the system. Instead, it invites the body into peace—slowly, safely, consistently.

It’s also a powerful heart opener.
And that part can be unexpectedly tender.

Even if you’ve been working on opening your heart for years, San Pedro has a way of reaching places that still feel guarded.
You might feel your chest soften.
You might feel old grief arise.
You might feel joy, or tears, or something you can’t quite name.
It can be beautiful—and sometimes challenging—because heart-opening isn’t always sparkly.
Sometimes, it’s the ache of remembering how deeply we can feel.

But it’s worth it. Every time.

And that word—consistently—is key.

The true transformation for me didn’t happen overnight. It happened because I stayed committed. I took it consistently over time. I eventually shifted to a five-days-on, two-days-off rhythm because I noticed my body needed space to integrate. On the off days, I still feel the effects—like my system is still being held.

It’s not just the anxiety that has shifted—
Intrusive thoughts have continued to soften.
My baseline feels even more grounded.
My nervous system continues to learn what calm actually feels like.
My heart has opened even more.
And my presence has deepened.

Something else I’ve come to love is how San Pedro can be a beautiful ally when paired with other psychedelics or supplements.
Many people I know will do LSD one day and San Pedro the next, or alternate days between mushrooms and San Pedro. These expansive supports can work beautifully together—each offering its own frequency of clarity, healing, and connection.

That said, my personal recommendation—especially for anyone just starting—is to spend time with San Pedro on its own first.
Give yourself the chance to really feel what it’s doing in your system. To track the subtle shifts. To notice how it works in your body. There’s something sacred about getting to know one plant deeply before inviting others into the space.

This has been my experience—and everyone’s path will be different.
But I’ve heard this echoed by many others: that San Pedro has a way of meeting us exactly where we are… and quietly inviting us home.

It doesn’t push.
It doesn’t force.
It doesn’t flood.

It teaches through presence. Through space. Through gentle but unwavering support.

If you’ve ever felt like you’ve done the work but still carry just a bit of heaviness…
If you’ve longed for a peace that isn’t fleeting but lives deep in your bones…
If you’ve found other modalities to be too much, or too fast…
Or if your heart is longing to open just a little more…
If your body is ready to finally feel safe and grounded—or ready for a deeper level of grounding—

This might be the invitation you’ve been waiting for.

San Pedro has become one of the most trusted companions in my life.
A steady, heart-centered guide showing me that peace isn’t something we chase—
It’s something we learn to remember.

XOOX –
Your Mushy CEO